I'll give you somehting to chew on; I have a Sibling 18 months older than I, dying of ALS. Terribly difficult but a blessing that has brought us close together (more to come later I'm sure).
I HAD a girlfriend, still love her dearly but we just aren't meant to be, and it's not like we didn't try. When the gut and heart start to boil together and that doo doo feeling rises to the top, I need to remember that if you love something set it free (cliche but true).
Remembering the good times will get me through and the bad times will remind me of why it shouldn't be, not now at least. Its a long road, sometimes shortened by elements of uncontrollable occurrences, and though I feel terrible deep inside I know it is for the best, for both of us. I never want to hurt her and sometimes it just happens naturally as pain is a part of living.
My emails are piling up and I need to start my day, distraction is my best friend this morning, and to anyone out there questioning a life decision,; listen to your heart because mine is busy.
Song of the day; anything by the Beachboys. If only I had them on my playlist.....
